Zowie, It's Been Ages

so as usual, it's been too long, just too long since my last posting and so much has changed. i've got a new job in the time since i last posted, but as the new gig has a blogging policy, i won't talk about work. the good news is that i do like the job and it's a universe apart from the hellmouth, so i can't complain.

oh, let's face it. i could. but in this economy, it's not wise to bite the hand that feeds you. anyway, i'm back. and since the group of people that we are friends with all blog, it's time to get back to what i love. and that is writing. and there's so, so much to write about. i almost don't know where to start.

should i begin with leaving the hellmouth and try to recap the past year? i think that's a the right thing to do.

So, I Was In Funkville

but i'm back again. i will write about my awesome birthday weekend soon (the adorable one treated me to a fantastic and perfect weekend of fabulousness).

for some reason on monday, i just felt out of sorts. maybe it was a let down from the weekend. but i was crabby, pissy, and just felt non talkative, non social, and just wanting to be left alone.

thankfully, like a lingering storm system, it lifted away by thursday and i felt more like my normal self. probably helps that i'm getting my way at work and moving away from the kitchen into a cube that is closer to natural light and in a much more quiet area of our area.

regardless, i'm back. got lots to catch up on, primarily the bday weekend and other news.

Wow, It's Me

Ever Have One Of Those Days

where pretty much everything seems irritating? the boss you usually like gives you a hard time. all the people that congregate by your cube because the kitchen is right there decide to talk really loudly for a long time, which interferes with your work, which includes writing and talking on the phone to clients.

i know there's the saying that some days you are the dog and some days you are the fire hydrant. today, i was most very definitely the fire hydrant. which may explain why i feel pretty crabby and very tired.

It Must Be Something I've Done

because let me say that for the last few nights, all i've had are bad dreams. a few nights ago, i dreamed i was back at the hellmouth, visiting some people. in the dream i thought that the head jerk was around, so i was hiding from him. that dream wasn't as bad as the one i had this morning.

for some reason i was at an expensive restaurant and had to pay the bill for a large group, so i put it on my marriott visa. and then i went somewhere else where i had to pay for something, like the grocery or something, and the card was declined because the adorable one and i had maxed it out. i think that had to do with the fact that i've been a wee bit of out of control with the shopping and spending. it's like being an alcoholic that doesn't have a drink for a long, long time and then goes on a bender. we spent quite a bit this weekend, mostly because of me. which normally isn't that big of a deal, except that i make less money now in my new job, which i do love, but also because the economy seems to be pretty much in the tank and i shouldn't be doing anything that makes our debt bigger. but i am, so there you have it. maybe i am a secret self sabateur. who knows.

the hard part of the dream was like, how are we going to pay for anything? it was like we were out of money, no credit cards, etc. there were no options, so i had no idea of how we were going to afford food, gas, etc. thankfully, that is not the case in real life, but i do admit that i could do a better job of saying "no" to going out to lunch so much, dinner because me and the adorable one are too lazy to cook, etc.

not sure where all this angst is coming from, but it's no fun to go to sleep lately.

$$$$, But Super Delish

damn panera bread--even their spinach & artichoke baked egg souffle is addictive. it's probably a good thing that they are cost prohibitive or i would seriously be in debt and i wouldn't fit into one outfit i own. seriously.

Yum!

I Can't Remember The Last Time

gas cost $2.69/gallon, as that's what the price today when i filled up my car after work. the price was actually less than when i left for work this morning ($2.72). so instead of costing close to $30 for a half tank of gas, i got away with spending a little over $18.

yay, i know it won't last much longer, but it's nice for a change not to feel completely robbed at the pump.

Note The Date

yesterday, due to a cold front that came through that included a drop in temps plus rain, i actually turned on the furnace. we always try to go as long as we can without having the furnace on, but as the low was gonna be in the 40s and the highs only in the 50s for today and tomorrow, i wimped out and flipped the switch last night.

i only have it only set at 68 (usually in the winter, we have it set for 72 when we are both home, especially in the evening, when the cold sets into the house), so it's not like it's running constantly. still, i would have liked to wait as long as possible.

next step is switching to the winter comforter, which we will do this weekend. it took us a long time to get our summer quilt out due to winter lasting freaking forever, so i am saddened to return it, once washed, to the linen closet for another six to seven months.

yet one more reason, in a long line of reasons, of why we need to move to the sunshine state!

What A Total Hoot

yesterday we were watching vh1's "top 20 videos", which is kind of a rarity for us, as usually they feature pretty sucky videos. but i must say katy perry's new single, "hot n cold" is a a fun song with a great hook. and the video is a total throwback to 80s videos. in fact, i liked the song enough to add it to my ipod.

too bad the beginning of pink's new song, "so what", is so annoying, as the rest of it is awesome and the video is hilarious.

It's Vapid, But Still Kinda Sad

so last year i got into the "girl's next door" show on the e! network, which granted is a mindless, silly show. but very escapist, which is what i like.

the toughest things those girls have to do is pick out what they are going to wear on a daily basis. rest of the time, they are living rent-free, in a mansion with staff, going on amazing trips, planning costume parties, and tending to their pets. not a bad life other than having sex with ole hef.

anyway, i kinda liked holly and hef together. she was the main girlfriend, the one that has been with him the last six years. she was very much the alpha female of the house, the one that shares his bedroom, and actually seemed to be in love with him. granted she's kinda territorial and can't stand it if anyone else is actually getting attention or if something good happens for someone else, as she is very scarlett o'hara.

even so, it was sad to learn in my crack mag that they were having problems and then they actually broke up. i can't blame holly for wanting to get married and have kids, which is all she ever wanted. but hef wasn't getting divorced from wife #2 or having any more kids.

she could have spent the next 20 years or so with hef, essentially being the mistress of the manor, but she gave it up to go after what she really wanted.

i'm not sure why she threw away a total free ride, plus cash from the show, calendars, etc., but as weird as it sounds, it made me sad for her that things didn't work out for her.

no doubt the show will go on, as it always does. but it won't be the same.