Lost In Thought

it's happened a lot lately. the adorable one and i will be driving somewhere, usually errands, and i'll just space off. i don't even realize i'm doing it until i almost wake up as if i've been in a dream or some other place. i can't say if i have more on my mind than usual, as inside my head always feels like one of those gerbil wheels on speed. in fact, the reason i like going to sleep as much as i do is because i just don't have a constant running commentary going on.

don't get me wrong or think that i'm being annoying, which is always a possibility. i do a lot of thinking all day long. and that is a good thing. i happen to love my brain, i really do. but the break is a welcome relief. no, i don't want to be a vegetable or any less intelligent than i am. just once in a while i need to zone off, to let go, to stop working the synapses so much, which yes, i get you can't control.

i think we all have ongoing conversations and thoughts in our heads, at least i would like to think we do. i just find it interesting when i go somewhere else, mentally. where i lose myself. i forget where i am and what we're doing. and it's kinda weird. but in a lot of ways i like it. i like it a lot.

and as much as a control freak that i am (surprise!), i like being lost. even if it's only for a short time.