I Didn't Get It, But I'm Okay. Really.
so my boss told me today that i didn't the promotion. i had a feeling that i wouldn't get it as they gave it a woman who already markets the product line, so that's okay. i was actually relieved, as awful as this sounds, that they didn't select the cph.
anyway, my boss said some nice things--that the whole selection team felt that i did a really good job, that i'm a go-getter, that i answered the questions maturely and really thought out my answers. and that was nice. the deal breaker, as we were neck-and-neck, is that they talked to a bunch of people and everyone gave her rave reviews, while some people felt like they had to manage some of the processes with me more. which i thought was interesting because any time you try to do anything on your own or take initiative, you can get in trouble. i am very cautious and tentative because you have to get permissions for a lot of stuff--you can't just, for example, send out information about a product line, without letting 20 people know. it's weird.
and as my boss pointed out, the gal who got the job had an unfair advantage because she already worked with the product line. but again, it's alright--she's the right fit for the position and i get that. i will even congratulate her, sincerely, and probably route a card for everyone to sign in an effort to show that i can be a gracious loser.
hopefully, another opportunity will come up, so we'll see. my boss was pleased that i took a risk, put myself "out there", and followed through on wanting to move ahead. and the timing actually works out, as my mid-year review / individual development plan meeting with him is tomorrow and we'll just cover the same ground without it being a surprise.
i'm sure i'll hear the same stuff, but it will be easier to take. it probably sounds like i'm being a big ole baby sourpuss, but i've taken constructive criticism my whole career, and just once i would like the glowing praise that i feel like i've earned.
regardless, i'm okay. and i'll continue to be okay.
anyway, my boss said some nice things--that the whole selection team felt that i did a really good job, that i'm a go-getter, that i answered the questions maturely and really thought out my answers. and that was nice. the deal breaker, as we were neck-and-neck, is that they talked to a bunch of people and everyone gave her rave reviews, while some people felt like they had to manage some of the processes with me more. which i thought was interesting because any time you try to do anything on your own or take initiative, you can get in trouble. i am very cautious and tentative because you have to get permissions for a lot of stuff--you can't just, for example, send out information about a product line, without letting 20 people know. it's weird.
and as my boss pointed out, the gal who got the job had an unfair advantage because she already worked with the product line. but again, it's alright--she's the right fit for the position and i get that. i will even congratulate her, sincerely, and probably route a card for everyone to sign in an effort to show that i can be a gracious loser.
hopefully, another opportunity will come up, so we'll see. my boss was pleased that i took a risk, put myself "out there", and followed through on wanting to move ahead. and the timing actually works out, as my mid-year review / individual development plan meeting with him is tomorrow and we'll just cover the same ground without it being a surprise.
i'm sure i'll hear the same stuff, but it will be easier to take. it probably sounds like i'm being a big ole baby sourpuss, but i've taken constructive criticism my whole career, and just once i would like the glowing praise that i feel like i've earned.
regardless, i'm okay. and i'll continue to be okay.
posted by the princess at 6/26/2006
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